1/23/2003 04:41:00 PM
well I am going to add an Important addition to my RANT about the cold weather that i wrote about three hours ago....an addition the i feel *must* go with it, so here you are!
this little letter, that i will write, now, could be *the* most signifigent letter, of my postings!!
----three hours after i wrote that rant, i felt "bad"! there was a very ulterior motive behind my anger...[did you notice my anger, oozing through every sentence?!!] yes, anger, not only anger at
...seeing all the plants die and the Northern winter WIN, thoughly, as I
would indeed like the "rasterfarian, mellow, good times" to continue!
.....but anger at the fact that i will die too, soon! anger that anything and everything has a death, whether a camphor tree or a nation!
but there is yet ANOTHER, deeper, anger!!
Once, i read, in a spirtual book, of a man's journey to 1925 China.
this writer was an old soul, versed in the spiritualist religion and Guides and mediumship and the afterlife metaphysics. On his travels he met an old man with a *very* unusual karma! this old man knew that, from a young man, that he was Chosen by spirit to do a certain afterlife mission. In oldchina, the afterlife tradition is...
is that one passess though a judgement hall, after death, and one's soul is judged. then the soul goes on to heaven or hell.
well.....this old man had a karma where he would BE one of these judges, after he died: he was a bit miffed, at first, but then he realized that someone had to do it, so he became resigned for this.
well....In a way, my anger is such that i have to accept MY afterlife mission, a mission that slowly unfolds to me, over the years, beginning even 35 years ago. that i will, after i die, i will go "work" in the lower heavens as a healer/counselor/teacher. Now, i know that the earth's afterdeath population goes to the third heaven, immediately after death: the earth's "gate" enters out onto the 3rd level, late 3rd, early 4th. the levels below are the "catch up" ,"summer school",
or "reformitory school", for all the souls that came into heaven that are
lacking in some trait or soul-essence, either by commission or non-commission, while on earth. or...maybe they died BEFORE their time, in war or earthquake, such that they are not ready, a fruit ripped off the tree, unripe!
I will, upon my death, go be trained for, and then go live in...the lower realms so to be one of the "proctors, teachers, healers.
read: "the hell worlds"! i may even *look* like a "demon" and will certainly have many many real Demons for helpers and aides!
I already have Bonded with a number of these Spirits, in real Inituations, out of body, in their worlds!! they will aid me: i will aid them, in some way.....
my "anger and resentment"?!
....that, for one, i am shown that all of my old soul friends will Go On
and enter the upper worlds. I will never see them again. never GO to live in their world, maybe for thousands and thousands of years!
[*how* long, sports fans does it take until *every* hell-living soul ascends??! let alone until they stop entering hell from the earthplane! probably the sun will burn into a black clinker first!
a billion or four, years!]
NOW things become Clear to me! why it is that most new agers are "gentle' and vegetarian".....they are getting up to speed, getting a preview, here, of what it will be like after Ascention! they are living,NOW, here on earth, a bit of what it is like in the 5th...6th...7th planes of heaven!
but for ME.....a nice juicy slab of roast beef is "lightness", and a delacate food, as even that meat vibration will be far far above most of the worlds, in vibration, where i will go! actually it is close...
NOW i know why my clairvoyant preview of my "cabin on the *very very* edge of heaven, *right* next to the entrance of the earth" , is that way! yes, i was shown my cabin-to-be, after i die!!
that cabin, sports fans, could be the very very highest that i will ever go to visit, for melleniums!! only by being right next to the earthsphere can i even function in this heaven #3!!
no wonder i think in images!!
the abstract mind, the intellectual mind, is a trait of souls on level 5 or 6! the mind of image-makings is a ATAVISTIC trait, of the human race! read: operating on the lower levels, now. so i have to use that type of "mind", train for it here on earth. but here on earth, today, this imagemind trait is "regressive", old, outdated, as the spiritual evolution has gone on the more abstract thinking!
but I will have to near-exclusively use this imagemind way, there.
so *what* can i do to prepare?? perhaps learn how to become a
MARINE DI [drill instructor]! be *like* a very intelligent, feeling marine! "length, breadth, height, Disipline, order, structure, mind, discerment, questionings, feelings.
if the "sin' of a woman is...no mind: the "sin' of a man is..no feelings!
[how many men have i asked, like..."what was your feelings about that mountainview outside of that Asheville, north carolina, motel?"
and i draw a blank as he has not a single feeling for anything of the mountains! he would need a couple of hundred years of "VENUS" to catch up....as in a "summer catch-up school" for a high school graduate who graduated alright but failing in "feelings" so that in order for him to enter "college" that fall...[the 4th heaven plane]..he would have to take this remedial course in the 2nd world Venus level....as the person who failed "mind" would need a "Mercury' level, level 1!]
so i will join the cadre of people who are the "drill instructors", there. probably thousands of us, with many more times demons.
a whole Office just for this.
and YES, if my visions prove correct, a major WAR will occur in or within 3 to 5 years, a war far far larger than merely taking Saddam out....why a million or so souls will arrive all at once, mostly young souls who are RIPPED out of their bodies, unprepared both in time, dying young, and unprepared in Quality....*this* is where most will go, into the catch-up schools as they are unripe yet, for their Destiny in the upper worlds!
...let alone all the earthchange disasters that will surely occur!
suppose 30% of the earth's population will all come at
once: 20 billion souls crowding the entrance doors to the Reform school!!!! we will need ALL the help that we can muster; do i hear any Volunteers, from the peanut gallery, folks?!
I resent a bit that i am going DOWN while all my older soul friends are going UP! so i have to live-in-training, like a young soul , now, here on earth...and having a needed FUNDAMENTALIST streak in my soul.
I will have to work on increasing my "new york city "acidness", in my speech, and eat MORE meat. develop sarcasim even the more....
like, to a young girl in level 1..."what do you MEAN that your cell phone call was emotionally very important as you made that left turn and crashed into that car....you can now see that the other lady was crippled for life and all of her career was done away with and she is in constant PAIN all of her life and NOW you will live *as* her memories and feel her pain as she did as this pain is *your* pain: then you two will be roomates in the Cabin for twenty years, sharing lives together!"!!
I am sure both new agers *and* christians would not like what i write here....but somone has to be the "orderly", or the "instructor" in the hell worlds! Spirit has to have that Outpost there, or NONE of these souls would ever ever
NEVER TO PROGRESS INTO THE UPPER HEAVENS!
when Sathya Sai baba asked me in a spirit dream, about ten years ago..."would you, freestone, like to work with me in the progressions of MILLIONS of souls...NOW i see what he meant!!
betcha i signed up for this one *long* before i was ever born!!
"elietist"?! me? think that i have some "instructions that will tell ya what to do"?!
well....how would *you* like to live in hell until the last human soul came into it, from the earthsphere...and that does not count the time until the last human soul LEAVES the hell realms!! I may as well be there "forever"! If you think that "i act that i am more knowing than you, well...well, pray to volunteer to work *as* one of the aides in that same Office that i am in; just pray to Sai baba or to Jesus, to work 8with8 me, to help progress millions of the "Homeless"!!
["Homeless"....souls who really are "vibed' to live on level 4..5..or 6..or even 7; but cannot yet as they died unripe-young in years, before their time to die...or else died with some great "sin" or omission, in their life-path! thus they have to live in the Shelter, the Reform School, the catch-up Summer school!
YOU, blessed soul, in all probability, will only peer at these worlds, on your way Up! this is what 'ascention" is all about, to me: the human race, collectively and individually, getting a "level-up" and most will live in the upper heaven levels, after they die. they, you all, have that New melenium assureance, but you have to live out the rest of your earthly life first...kinda like of a "Rapture in slow motion"!
but I will NOT!
i will join the group that is the " Ultimate last picture show"...that movie theature in that small texas town where the owner saw his Karma to be the One to help send off all the young people, off to Dallas; but he must remain behind until the *LAST* kid has left this town, and after even all the newcomer-to-town kids have grown and left the town!
so, instead of reading "spiritual books" or joining an ashram" or
"meditating in the woods", in my last months of life, i will read the new york times, eat meat, and study Fundamentalist rants, and learn even the more to be "earthly" and to learn more of Disipline and mind and feelings!